July 31, 2010 6:22 AM

Hiez , it's been ages since I had a proper post ~
Heh , finally got back my phone ^^v
Super duper ultra mega happy can ! :D
Yesterday , school-ed as usual .
Almost fell asleep during POA :x
After school , went to IKEA with WeiTing , WangZhen , Joshua and Calvin .
They were super funny can ! LOL .
Came back to inter after that ,  headed to IGT .
Sadly , there was no com for us to use ):
No choice , went the the Lan @ Sports Hall . Wanted to play audi , but got patch ._.
Went to play L4D2 instead :B
Fun but dizzy :x Stopped after afew rounds , too dizzy alr .
Having headeache too , felt like vomitting :/
Sent WeiTing to take bus 3 then went back to lan again .
Sat there texting while waiting for the rest to play finish .
Parted from the rest , decided to go WangZhen's house with Calvin <:
Andandand , I regretted walking there ! Cause my shoe turned from white to brown D:
Oh ! And WangZhen's cousin is mad cute can ! ^^.
I just love her big eyes and long eyelashes ~ *jealous*
She is mix angmoh one lah , heh :B
Then Calvin left first , cause he was meeting KK and the rest .
Waited for WangZhen to bath finish . Walao , he bath like girl liddat sial , SO SLOW .___.
Went to his house downstairs take 293 to inter .
Saw Emilia , Parry and Mayvis there , chatted awhile (:
Sent WangZhen for his guitar class , went to meet Calvin after that .
He was super slow cannnnn ._. Separated with him after while .
Went to meet WeiTing outside school , WangZhen and Calvin came after awhile .
They sent us to some blocks then left alr .
Walked to 201 with WeiTing , went to Pasar Malam walkwalk . Heh :B
Took 28 , reached home around 10 .
Bathed then use com , used until fall asleep , LOL .
Just nao 4plus wake up :P
Checked phone , ChinTeng spammed my phone like siao .
200+ new messages , waste my time deleting  :@
Think gonna sleep back soon , it's 6.30 in the morning alr .
Hahahah , nights world ! :D

July 29, 2010 9:18 PM

I didn't say that I hate you .
I just want alittle more freedom .
I know I'm asking alittle too much , but you've been living with me for 15 years .
You should know my style more than anyone do .
Well , I'm sorry if I've hurt you .
But this is the way of me expressing myself , I know it maybe harsh sometimes .
My main point is , you give more freedom .
I'll respect you more , that's all I ask for .
Btw , not all people having angkong means they are bad people .
Angkong does not equal to ahbeng / ahlian .
It's just a form of art .
And not all of my friends are bad people , there are really good ones too .
You didn't see their good side before only .
Don't assume , cause you don't know them well yet .
Don't judge a book by it's cover .
Anyw , I'm just trying to ask for more freedom . That's it .

July 27, 2010 10:27 PM

July 25, 2010 5:35 PM

A strong front .
Using a fake smile to hide my real self everyday .
Starting to feel tired alr , don't really know how much longer I can hold on .
I need my fucking phone nao , so hard to contact others . Zz -.-
Been going to lan these few days with Wangzhen and the rest .
Okie , nothing to post alr .
Update again once I get back my phone .
Bye .

2:27 AM

The cuts are increasing slowly (':
And seriously , I don't need any counselling . I'm perfectly fine can -.-
I can imagine the counsellor talking craps to me alr .
Fyi , I'm not a com addict too . I just need a com now because my phone is confiscated and I got no way to contact my friends .
And I didn't say that I'm not in any wrong . But please get your facts right before scolding me or whatever shit .
You're asking me why am I going home late everyday ? I go home early use com , you say cannot .
Then what you expect me to do , watch teevee ? Sleep ? Do homework ? Teach Sharmin Pek to study ? No thanks please , I won't waste my time doing all those things .
You will never understand how much I fear .
You will never understand how sad am I .
You will never understand how I disappointed I am .
You will never understand how it feels to cry every night .
You will never understand how helpless I am .
You will never understand why I don't want to face reality .
It's not that I don't want to tell people anything , it's just that I can't find the right the person to tell .
I just feel that I can't trust anyone , not even the person closest to me .
That's why I choose to lie , because I don't trust anyone .
I just hope that I'm dead right now .

July 20, 2010 8:32 PM

再也見不到我的微笑 ,
忍著痛淚不掉 .
心碎了一地 ,　

撿不回從前的心跳 .

I'm tired of everything , really tired .
Can't hold any longer .
Gonna breakdown soon .
I'm back with slitting .
Saying how many times that I won't slit again , but I still ended up doing it .
Sorry , I've broke my promise .
Maybe you guys should never ever trust someone like me again .
Goodbye (':

4:21 PM

Hie . I'm super duper bored naoz !
At lan with WangZhen , Eugene and Joshua.
Nobody is entertaining me , all playing their dota . Zzzzzz !
Maybe going down to Katong , not sure yet .
Hah , just a short post .
Heh , buai ! :D

July 19, 2010 11:22 PM

Hieeeeeeeez , just bath finish not long ago .
Went to school today , it was a miracle that I didn't fall asleep during History lesson .
Break my record for this year liao ley , LOL :x
After school , went to 267 there find Joshua . Walao , he see doc super long can !
Went to IGT after that , lan all the way .
YewJin and Dingchye came after that , audi-ed with WeiTing , Joshua and DingChye . Fun ^^
WangZhen and Eugene came after that .
OMG can , Eugene's audi skills . Totally got owned by him ._.
One word : Pro . HAHAHAHAH .
But nvm , I will catch up with you soon one ! LOLOLOLOLOL :P
The rest left alr , then WangZhen , Eugene and me took 293 home .
Me and Eugene took the long one just to pei WangZhen ._.
End up he never alight at his stop ! Waste my time ! Grrrrr .
He ended up alighting oppo library . Then me and Eugene like ah hai like that pei him sit one whole round for nothing . Crappppppp okie ! ROAR ! LOL .
Then Eugene keep laughing at me when I alight the bus == Sot one , LOL .
Came home, nothing to do . Audi agn , HAHAHAAHH :B
Called WeiTing after that , joined call with WangZhen . Chatted awhile , then WeiTing went to bath .
Chatted with WangZhen awhile more then kup alr , went to bath .
Nao blogging , hoho .
Not going to sleep tonight , chiong for SS . FML .______.
Ohya . To psb : Your words won't affect me . I'll just assume that you're just another lifeless person :D
Okie , gonna chiong SS nao .
Byeeeeee ^^v

Pushing me to others won't do the trick .

July 18, 2010 10:09 AM

1:41 AM

Okie , I'm lazy to post .
On the phone with WangZhen nao . Update more later .
Byeeeeee ~

July 16, 2010 11:43 PM

Update later , on the phone with ChinTeng naoz .
- Edited -
Hello , back to post alr .
Woke up at 7.30 today .
Get ready , bath and everything .
Bused down to inter , reached at 8.45 .
Saw Joshua there alr , he reached at 7.45 . LOL .
WeiTing came after awhile , then WangZhen .
Walked to Stadium , went to lan . Hoho .
Play from 9 - 3 . Like shiok only ! (Y)
Went to KFC for lunch , Bryce tagged along too .
Eating halfway , then Bryce said something super hilarious and digusting .
I jitao laugh out , cannot eat alr . ROFL .
Went back to lan after that , continue using . Audi-ed with 3 of them , totally owned everyone okie .
MUHAHAHAHAH :x
WeiTing left first as she had tuition in the evening . Left me , Joshua and WangZhen .
Play until sian alr , left the lan .
Hmmmmm , splitted with Joshua after that . He went home I think ? Cannot remember :x
Walked to WangZhen's house there , he went home .
Then got nothing to do , so took 293 for a bus tour . LOL .
Fell asleep in the bus x-x Woke up by WangZhen's call .
He told me he was leaving house alr , so continued taking 293 back to inter .
Like finally , he was earlier than me . HAHHHA :x
Went to Tm , no money ):
Bobian , watch him eat . And the most irritating thing is , he kept tempting me . ROAR ! Make me more hungry only ._.
After that met LiPing . Went to 253 there slack , wait for WeiTing .
He super irritating can , keep disturbing me == Disturb me alr still say I noisy , siao one. LOL .
LiPing left after awhile , then WeiTing came .
Went to FairPrice , WeiTing bought some things then went home .
On the phone with ChinTeng just nao , he diam all the way . WTHHHH ==
After that WangZhen called , talk awhile then he went to sleep .
Then call WeiTing after that , chitchat until 1.30 kup .
It's currently 2am in the morning and I've just bathed finish . Zomg can :x
Okie , I'm gonna audi awhile and off to sleep .
Bye world (:

July 14, 2010 11:43 PM

Hoho , super tired okiez .
Yesterday , headed to AMK for songka . Cried ):
Sad ttm can .
Oh , and to Darren to Eunice . Cheer up yea ? Though your mum's gone , but there will still be many people there for you two . Smileeeee (:
Went to AMK Hub after songka , walkwalk then arcade .
Hoho , it's been ages since I've played my beloved jubeat . Skills cui until cannot cui alr D:
Then went home after buying groceries .
Today , went school .
Played all the way , like fun only . Hoho .
Went to canteen awhile then back to the library with WeiTing and ShiQing as they had duty today .
Then suddenly Wangzhen sms-ed me using Daniel's phone asking where am I O:
So met him at school gate there , went to T1 to search for my earliner .
But sadly , I couldn't find it ):
So went back to school with WangZhen to find WeiTing and ShiQing .
Slacked all the way , like bored only ._.
Ended around 5 , went to mac .
Had my lunch , everyone kup my fries ):
And that evil WangZhen even kup my coke too , ASS ! D:
Ate finish , actually wanted to go CS de , but ShiQing didn't want to go as she was tired .
So went back to inter , WeiTing and ShiQing took 39 home .
Then WangZhen decided to come my house .
Super funny luh , we both dk what to do .
So I stare at him then he stare back at me , LOL can .
Kinda ridiculous , HAHAHAH :x
Okie , whatever .
He left at 7 plus . Then I bathed , met WeiTing at my house downstairs .
Ekka was there too :D Chatted awhile then Ekka went home .
Me and WeiTing went to my house oppo buy my dinner <:
Then walked around with WeiTing , had heart to heart talk with her (:
Walked her all the way to her home there , see I so nice right ? LOL d:
Walked to T-Mart's ESSO there , mum came and fetched me home .
I'm so gonna sleep early today , didn't really sleep well for the past few days .
Eye bags worsen , ZOMG ._.
Kaykay , sleep alr .
Bye ! (:

Guess it's really over this time . Thanks for the memories , goodbye...

12:40 AM

Hiezxcvb !
Talking to Sebas kor and Rasty on msn nao .
Talked to WangZhen on fb just nao , like hilarious only ! LOL .
Hoho , and that dumbdumb ChinTeng . Spam my phone with smses , make my phone lag like siao .
Noob , wait until I meet you then you die liao . MUAHAHAHAH :x
Okiez , a proper update tmr .
Off to sleep nao , brain not functioning alr . LOL .
Nights !

Can't get you off my mind ):

July 13, 2010 10:30 AM

Overslept , mum couldn't wake up too .
Didn't go school in the end  .
Sigh , off to songka nao .
Byeee )':

2:17 AM

Hiez , I'm still awake . Okie , crap ._.
Been saying want to sleep since 12am just nao .
But went in audi , chiong like some siaozb . Didn't notice the time .
Jialat , tmr dk how to wake up alr ;x
Anyone kind enough to morning call me ? Please , I seriously need someone okiez .
Eyes closing , dozing off soon .
Bye peeps (:

I just want to talk to you :/

12:12 AM

Just came home from songka not long ago .
Jitao come home after school , prepared everything .
Bathed then cabbed down with grandma , maid and sister .
The uncle somehow took a long way then reach AMK , gosh x-x
Slacked around, nobody was there yet . Super bored .
Kaching didn't come down today as he had tuition , sadded ):
But at least Desiree came , chatted with her . Hoho :B
Look at them doing the ceremony . Couldn't join for some reason , lazy to type it out .
Heh :x
Leaving school after recess later , going for the songka .
Their gonna burn her all that , miss her many many .
But dk why , I just can't seem to cry .
Probably become numb alr . Hah (':
Whatever , gonna bath and sleep alr .
Only slept 2hours thanks to yesterday's night soccer ._.
Hurhur , S-P-A-I-N  ! <3
Okieeez , nights ~

Another night of pain and nightmares .

July 12, 2010 3:22 AM

GO SPAINNNNNNNN ♥ ~
Hurhur , I feel so crazy watching WorldCup at such time :x
And the funniest thing is , it's my first time watching a soccer match .
I know nothing about soccer , LOL .
Tmr sure cannot wake up one , die :x
HAHAHAHAH , who cares . At most tmr toh in school during workshop :P
Dk why , I'm actually supporting Spain , LOL .
SPAIN ~ SPAIN~ SPAIN~ ♥.♥
HAHAHAHAHAH . Whatever , I'm gonna continue watching .
Byeeeeez <:

1:20 AM

Hey , just reached home not long ago .
Tonned at songka last night . Chitchat with others then play iTouch , heh :B
Chatted on the phone with Ting and ChinTeng these few days .
Crappppp , can't seem to forget everything .
Everytime I close my eyes , flashbacks of what you told me would just go through my mind .
Yesterday , Heng called me .
Told me that you're going Sakura .
Was happy for a moment , but after awhile she called back again .
Saying that you're not going anymore .
Probably cause you thought that I was going I guess .
Yea , my heart broke instantly .
I know , I should give up .
I'm like saying to other people I don't like you anymore , but my mind isn't thinking that way .
Thought I could really forget you . But when I hear your name , my heart starts to miss you all over again .
I hate this feeling :/
You were the one who made me smile , and also the one who made my smile fade .
Sighhh , Imissyou . Badly ):
It's hard to be friends with you , really hard .
Guess I can't be me for a moment . My real smile ? I can't seem to find it anymore .
Okiez , I'm gonna watch soccer nao .
Going to songka after school tmr .
Bye world .

I still love you , alot...

July 10, 2010 2:40 AM

Heyyyyz .
Talked on the phone with ChinTeng just now , then I go kup .
Then now he dunwan reply me , so small gassssssss ):
Okay la , sorry lo . I meet you on monday lahs :D
Okiez , I'm gonna take a nap nao .
Update more when I wake up <:
Byeeeee ~

Broken promises

July 08, 2010 6:46 PM

Hurhur , hiez .
Short post and I'm going out alr .
Going to hosp .
Hope to see couz and the rest there :B
But my hair cui sial . OMFG can  -___-
Morning went school , sms-ed with ChinTeng all the way .
Luckily have him to entertain me , if not sure doze in class dunno how many times alr x-x
After school , jitao go home .
Played one round of audi with doudou just naoz , so long never play with him alr . Hah :D
Chatted on msn . Well , last long w/ your girlf .
Just treating you as a goodfriend naoz (:
Friends last longer then stead , isn't it ?
Hahs , guess you're my only friend now .
Whatever , who cares anw <:
Okiez , mum nagging alr .
Byeeeeeez .

12:33 AM

Erm yea .
Just reach home like half an hour ago ?
Met Ting and WangZhen for our jogging  .
Rest at playground there , chatted .
Ting went home around 9 plus .
WangZhen pei me cab down to find Kiyomi @ T-mart .
He cabbed home after that .
Slacked with Kiyomi outside mac .
Sent her go take cab , took 28 home .
Chatted with Ting on the phone in the bus .
I know , I'm such a cry baby .
Crying for the whole day , still need to gek one smile infront others .
Then come home jitao cry , face cui like some fuck shit .
It seriously suck ttm . Trying to accept that you're gone in my life .
You will never come back to me , I'm just giving myself false hopes that you'll come back .
Trust ? Faith in love ? Thinking that someone will be there when I fall ?
Cock shit , I'm not going to believe this anymore .
Love ? There's no eternity in it .
Hah , still promise so many things .
Ending all are just broken-promises only .
All those promises ? They are still in my mind , want to delete also cannot .
Yea , I'll just vanish .
Eating down a whole bottle of pills doesn't seem like a bad idea after all .
Who knows , maybe I'll just sleep and never wake up .
Not bad eh ? I'll be trying it real soon . TRUST ME , I WILL .
Friends , saying that they will be there for me ?
Hah , don't cock please . Treating me like a fool .
Happy happy call me come , not happy just shoo me off .
You think what , I'm your play toy or something is it ?
I'm human , I have feelings too .
You feel pain , I do too . You know ?
Pain ? I'm feeling it everyday , every single day .
Yea , I'll just accept the fact that I have no friends , no family , no nothing .
Nobody will be there when I fall , NOBODY .
Motivation to study ? No more I guess , don't see what's the point of working so hard anymore .
Do so much for who to see ? Parents ? Crap , nobody will appreciate it .
You stepped into my life , thought I saw hope once again .
But who knew , it was just my illusion I guess .
Love you so much , all I get was hurt .
You say I've hurt you alot , but do you know how much you hurt me too ?
Thought this pain will never come to me again . But still I felt it once more .
It's much more painful than the previous one . Waited for your message like some fool .
Did you even know how panick I was when dm confiscated my phone just now ?
Couldn't even concentrate in class , I could only get back my phone after my detention .
Sitting there for 2hrs was like sitting 2days .
I almost went insane , tried sleeping to let the time past quicker .
Finally , 4.40 pm .
Got my phone back , checked phone .
You didn't even message me . Disappointed to the max .
For the first time , I felt so speechless .
Kept staring at my phone , till now .
I'm still looking at it , hoping that you will message me .
I know , I'm giving myself false hopes over and over again .
There's no miracle in this world , I'm just lying to myself .
I can't face reality , I'm such a coward .
I'm just wondering , will you even miss me when I'm gone ?
Well , don't dare to pin too much hope either .
Just hope that you'll sms me when you see this .
I may be gone soon , real soon (:

July 07, 2010 7:23 PM

Overslept in the morning , so went to school @ 12 .
Nabuey , go school then Ow confiscate my phone . Zzz .
Dulan ttm can . Went for 2 hrs detention , tmr need to go for another 1hr .
Planning to run for tmr's one , hope he won't ask my ez-link card from me ==
WangZhen had detention too , then chatted with him all the way .
Mine ended first , waited for him to finish his .
Had Popeye for lunch .
Then went walking around , heart to heart with him all the way again .
Yea , you're right . Making myself numb would be a better choice , I don't want to feel anyt alr .
It hurts ttm .
Splitted with him after that , took 293 home .
Saw Malvina on the bus (:
Going out soon , meeting Ting and WangZhen for jogging again .
Meeting Kiyomi sist at T-mart after that .
Update more tmr , bye .
Hate that I love you so much ..

10:01 AM

Hope you're seeing this .
I really really miss you .
Been waiting for your sms , couldn't sleep for the whole night .
Hoping that everything will be fine the next day .
Hoping to call you baby once again .
I really love you , I swear .
Trust me once more , will you ?
I know , I was the one who made you afraid to fall in love and the reason to your fall .
But I really want to be the one to make you fall in love and get back up from your fall now .
I just want to be back like how we used to be .
Whatever we said is still in my heart , it still exist .
I won't forget , and I never will .
I just need you back , I'll do anyt for your return .
I'll wait . Because I love you , alot .

8:52 AM

July 06, 2010 12:17 PM

Sighhhhhhh , it's always misundestandings )':
Feel like slitting again , at least it distracts me away from the pain in my heart .
Did you know how happy I was when you call me and said that you were sorry for hurting me ?
That happy feeling , it can't be describe at all .
Me and Edmund ? We're just friends .
He's just a brother of mine .
Trust me , will you ?

July 05, 2010 1:16 PM

Hiezxcvb !
Yesterday sms with Edmund halfway then fall asleep , ps ah ;x
Woke up at 9.30 , replied his message .
Then he call me , chatted with him on the phone :D
Kup the call around 10.45 , he went to bath .
Then I went to watch teevee , watch till fall asleep ._.
Now then just wake up only ;x
Meeting Desiree @ Amk mrt station later .
Heading to Novena , visiting Darren's mum .
Haven't do homework yet , crap ._.
Later gonna chiong alr , might be watching movie tmr .
Hahs , off alr .
Byeee (:

July 04, 2010 11:40 PM

Going to TTS Hosp tmr .
Visiting Darren's mum , hope she gets better :/
Slept @ 5am just now , couldn't wake up x-x
But ending still wake up luh , hahah <:
Went to Yishun . Played badminton , so restless luh ;x
Saw Ahjie baby @ Yishun safra ! ^^
Went there to bath , then play arcade . The arcade was like superrrr cold ~.~
Headed to Giant , bought groceries and went back home to cook .
Came home , let cousin use com awhile .
Then my turn to audi , hahah d:
Played with Celine , after that cpl came . Played with him , he play awhile then went for his maple alr ._.
Finally level 29 alr laa , super happy canzxc ! :B
2 more levels to main , hurhur ^^v .
Okie , I'm gonna wash up and off to my audi again .
Hehee , byeeee ~

Yezzzzzz , your reply super cold can . I just want to talk to you ma :/

1:58 AM

July 03, 2010 10:51 AM

Hurhur , hie ! (:
Went out with Kiyomi sist yesterday :D
Met her at TM , then met Ahwen and his friend outside the Cinema .
Watched Eclipse , nice okie ! ^^
Movie ended around 8.20 , went to Open Plaza watch them smoke .
After that parted with Ahwen and his friend , cabbed down to 340 to meet Rion .
Slacked around , chithchat .
Watch them smoke , thanks sist for the drinks ! <3
Left around 12.30 , cabbed home .
Meeting Ting outside school later , going to Airport I think .
Heheh , I'm gonna get ready le .
Byeeee <:

July 02, 2010 4:53 PM

Quick post and I'm going out alr .
Study halfway then signed out , had chestpain :/
Went to see doc , he say must really follow up with the medicine le .
If not I maybe have lung infection . Ohmy , no please ):
Audi-ed all the way .
Going to bath then off to meet Kiyomi sist alr !
Gonna watch movie , maybe going to hosp later .
Update more later . Byeeee (: